Something and the Infinite or Other

by Audrey Kawasaki

This would be infinitely better than MySpace if you didn’t hafta pay. As of now, its about even.

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So its a weekend evening, and like many other weekend evenings here in Vacaville, I’m super lonely. This time though, it’s not because of limerence and its ilk. To quote Red,

“I guess I just miss my friend(s).”

I chatted with my favorite, Adry, a little bit and realized how it must suck to be not-white in Oklahoma. Then I realized that I missed her stupid silliness. Our conversation is short though, so that only made things worse. Then my fellow insomniac (well, back when I was one… I dunno what I am now), Amanda of all people has to sign online (that punk! the nerve…). *sigh* I missed a lot of stuff by coming back too late to do SB. Perhaps it was for the best, but I was really looking forward to working with Amanda, Zach, Mel, Augustin and Vanness (sorry I didn’t keep my promise). Summer Bridge is just a crazy, crazy, crazy experience and it would have been great to experience it one more time with some of the coolest, funniest and cutest people I know. It wasn’t meant to be though, so oh well.

Talking with Amanda also brought up The Head… and that’s a whole other bucket of tears… or whatever it is that emo people do (and yes… I cry for you Stump). And thinking about these LA friends led me to think about Lyon, also in LA, and how he left me just a week ago to rot in this desolate wasteland known as Cow Towning (DESPAIR).
The closest Fume Hood Posse members are Dr. Claw and uh… Wayne (sorry forgot your FHP name), and they’re in Sacramento… not exactly down the street anymore.

But despite all this… I just miss them. For one, they exist. That’s always a step in the good direction. And for two, its all good. The End. … I’m really lucky to have a lot of good people in my life. One day I will repay you all… IN BLOOD… hehe.

I also miss Japan. Man that place is cool. 日本に帰りたい。。。Speaking of which…

Advantage Lucy – Oolt Cloud

This song is so beautiful to me. I don’t know why… but I can listen to it forever. I really suck at words, so all I can say is that its ominous, but hopeful. Surprizingly, clockw0rk of Strider/Doom fame doesn’t agree with me. We’re usually i2i on these things… strange. Its got a great build-up… and the ending guitar shit is awwwwwwe. Make sure to check Lucy out… its really great stuff. I wish I coulda saw em in concert when I was in Japan. Next time… definitely.

Now if I could only find some lyrics…

About Terry McCall

I'm currently working on everything. INcluding this blog. For the past few hours, I've been keeping some of my typos. In what I write that is.

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