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Fear & Anime in Vacaville

Hi, I fear not finding the perfect gift. I fear not being able to wake up tomorrow. I fear going back to SD. I fear having noone here to talk to anymore. I fear never seeing the one I love again.

But its a new year soon. Time to put those fears to rest.

Ooh… that sounds so… decisive. Just some dramatic rambling.

Big-O:
Have you seen it? If you follow the series, then you know how stupid it is.

It has a really cool premise. Mankind exists in a future with no past. 40 years ago, “something” happened, which erased all of mankind’s memories. The hero, Roger Smith pilots an artifact of the past, Big O (typical anime giant robot) and uses it to fight crime and shit. The story goes along, trying to explain what happened so long ago. Blah Blah blah.

Originally ending after 13 eps on a super confusing cliffhanger that explains nothing, Cartoon Network revived the series, creating 13 new eps. The 2nd season builds upon the interesting plot, throwing in clones, mad scientists, misguided visionaries, etc etc. + more staples to sci-fi anime. But what’s the catch? the catch is that it makes no sense. I figure that they original creators left it at that cliffhanger cuz they realized how ridiculous the story would become. Cause the plot just goes crazy and shit starts gettin confusing and doesn’t make ANY sense. Oh. And the 26th ep? Ends on yet another cliffhanger, this time twice as confusing.

Some questions and considerations:
Why ARE giant robots so predominant in anime? Why not in american toons? Giant robos are cool. I like giant robos. I don’t like big o maybe.

I like everything about the show (well almost, the dialogue’s pretty weak/forced sometimes), except for the fact that it makes NO sense. That just pisses me off. Investing all that viewing time and etc into the series, HOPING that at the end I’ll go “OOOHHHHH!!!!! DAMN I GET IT!!!” … but no. I’m just all “DAMNIT!!!!!!” I mean, its cool to end on a such a dramatic (and dare I say cliffhanging again?) note, but having it not make sense pretty much ruined it for me. Imma stick with Bebop. Hell, at least Inu Yasha makes sense. I wish I had the $ to just buy some good anime and watch it in Japanese or something. But thanks to the craze, its waaaaaaay to spensive. But hopefully some kind soul out there’ll buy me the Trigun box set.

Oh yeah, they used to run Trigun on CN. That’s my fav anime. I first fell in love with its wackiness, and from what I’ve seen of the latter eps on CN, its story is rather crazy as well.

Well, I gotta go to sleep. And I don’t feel like posting anything worthwhile. Actually I probably shouldn’t sleep, I’ll never wake up in time. Being nocturnal sucks.

Oh, I’ve been listening to new purchases Bjork’s Telegram and Pink’s Obscured by Clouds. Gotta nice Yellow Sub poster too.

Well, tomorrow’s a big day. I gotta take a family picture (that’s what I gotta “wake up” for), see if I can face my old friends, and oh yeah, New Year’s Eve.

Don’t Drink & Drive.

I miss those CDs… again.

Man, my break has been great. I’ve been catching up with old friends and having a blast. Certainly a time of change… I’ve got a lotta other things to write, in a lotta other places, and since nobody comes here, imma make this short. And I also don’t like the fact that I still don’t have a layout of my own. Yeah yeah, once I get back in SD, I’ll use the finally accquired comp and photoshop and digicam and all that madness to make an original, maybe crappy, but original site. I really hate this template stuff… being the original, self-confident person that I am… hahaha.
So, happy holidays! I hope all you guys are having a great break too. And if you are reading this, tell me! And I’ll stop blowing it off… yeah right.

Oh yeah almost forgot. I was listening to Homew0rk when I was blogging, but now its Rage’s debut. Don’t have that plethora of music here like I do at home… but I did just buy Homew0rk, Band of Gypsys, FatBoySlim’s newest one, Dig Your Own Hole (again by mistake), and um… Deltron 3030 Instrumentals. I think that’s about it. I love music, don’t you?

Exmas ’03

I’ve been going on AIM more often lately (once in awhile, instead of never) so I figured more people would be directed here.

I’m listenin to Daft Punk’s Homew0rk by the way.

So yeah, Its Christmas (fuck off nitpickers) and I’m doing good (once again…). Let’s describe my day.

I woke up around 6ish; Mizuki was eager as ever to see what Santa & My ‘rents gave to her. She wound up with a tv, dvd player, expensive electronic learning thingy, and other stuff. Me? The usual outfit & cash, along with a 307 cd case (OMG) and some headphones (actually these are pretty cool). So yeah, after the merriment of everyone opening their presents—- hold up. So yeah, christmas this year was cool. I actually felt a little something like the old days of the holiday, a true sense of wonderment for the presents, as well as the feeling of being happy with my whole family (a reacurring theme this break). Like I said before, its been good.

So anyway, afterwards, I went back to sleep for awhile and did the usual room seclusion thing that I love doing while @ home. Around 3 or 4 tho, it started hailing! Haha, what a christmas day huh? I loved it. I surely wouldn’t be able to get this kinda shit in SD. Which brings me to another thing. I dunno if its because of finals and all that stress mess, but when I’m in SD, I seriously cannot feel the holiday spirit. I’m sure a lot of it just has to do with the environment. While I’m in SD, it doesn’t even feel like winter. For example, when the holidays come around here, it gets fucking cold (not like in SD where its only cold late @ night. I’m talking about all day all night) And the trees (not all evergreen) have little or no leaves. I dunno, I just haven’t felt it in SD yet. Although not having seasons is convenient, you just gotta appreciate how nature works, changing things up for us every 4 months or so.
ANYway, the hailstorm also created a really nice rainbow too. Nice and thick and not all tranlucent. It was actually a double rainbow, with a fainter double below it. What a beautiful day huh?

Dinner was great too—- oh yeah, my brunch, was Mabou (sp?) Ramen. Uh… I guess its like regular Ramen w/ spicy ground pork and tofu added to it. Man… that shit is too good.
Dinner tho, was even better. A nice Christmas roast with homemade mashed potatoes, steamed veges and salad and mini crossaints. Man that roast was good. Actually come to think of it, imma hafta have some after this post.

So the evening presses on, and I get a call from Tuan askin if I wanted to go see ROTK (you should know this acronym). Man, what a pleasant surprise! So we go around 8:30, and watch the damned thing.

I’m sure everyone else has heard enough about it but man, what a tight ass movie/trilogy/ending. The minor book/movie changes were a nice + in this one, subtle, understandable and enhancing. Lemme just say that I will be joining the horde who await the super ultra extended mega triple trilogy DVD pack. Man… watching the whole thing’ll probly take a whole day huh? “Good shit” as Dan “THE MAN” Laury would say.

So then I return, and am lucky enough to catch Adry online for a brief moment. Damn… I miss her millions (but that’s another post!). I love ya babe, hope you’re havin fun!
Bored, and longing to get fucked up, Me and Tuan hook up again. I smoke him out (in a matter of speaking?) in front of his home, look at the stars, and chill. Good people.

And now I’m at home, typin, eatin frozen strawberries, and listening to Daft. What a wonderful life indeed.

Random Notes

Random notes

  • G5’s are fucking huge. I couldn’t put it in my computer desk.
  • I need to get a copy of VirtualPC so I can get Kazaa or something
  • I need to get a copy of PS/Dreamweaver/stuff to get my site going
  • I gotta midterm next week
  • I stopped bowling
  • White lines (don’t do it)
  • I like that song, but I didn’t know it was about snow
  • I always thought it said White lights
  • New Outkast is too good

Vacation

So earlier today, I told Adry that I was tired of everything. Annoyed by everything. Basically, I was not really happy with my life. Why? A lotta things. Her response to this: “You need a vacation.” How ridiculously true.

Bridge is quite fun, and the jobs cakesauce, but by the end of the day, I’m drained. I love it though. The program itself is just a really, really good, happy, fun thing. It really is a family. And seeing all the new kids come on up is really something. Loads of memories and stuff, new and old. Blah blah blah.

I love my girlfriend. She’s everything I need right now, and supports me when I need it the most. It’s hard not being able to see her all the time with work and all, but we get through it, and those moments are blissful, relaxing, soothing, stress-relieving. But girls are evil. Either they do the above to you and cause you torment, or they play mind games, or they tempt you, or you don’t have one. And you can’t live without em. Sigh. Nevertheless though, “Constant over stimulation numbs me and I wouldn’t have it any other way” Or something.

    I really love Radiohead too. I’ve been listening to their B-Sides recently and fuck. Its like I fucking discovered the New World. This shit is really good… Bishop’s Robes, Polyethylene, Faithless, the Wonder Boy, etc. Go Go Go! Or Maybe I’ll UL em…

My Dad’s been in the hospital recently. Heart failure and the works, twice around. It really bums me out. He’s doing much better now though supposedly, doctor said so. But shit like that really makes me think about how little time I have left with him. He’s been trying to help me get a G5, but the constant nagging, calling, “did you do this?” “what about this?” “how’s your car?” “blah blah blah”, annoys me like no other. So whenever I get tired of it, I go “yeah, uhuh, ok, yeah” etc. and try to rush things along asap. Afterwards tho, I feel hella guilty. “I shouldn’t be mad, he’s only trying to help!” Yeah. That feeling sucks. I don’t wanna deal with it.

My car’s still got that light on. I just took it in today. Supposedly, its the fuel injektor that’s fucked up this time. WTF I hate that pos car and want a japanese one. Thanks to my dad’s newly found super veteren status or something, my tuition’s free so a new car is a possibility? Took 4 or 5 years to get here but finally here it is. Free-ride city. Yay about that huh?

So yeah I missed EVO. AGAIN. Fuck. I really wanted to go, but I fucking procrastinated on everything and got caught up. Fucking Bridge. But yeah, between my dad getting sick, work, my fucked up car, adry, etc. I couldn’t go. I regret it. But there’s nothing I could do I guess. But yeah check SRK if you care. And if you find any vids posted, hit me up. I already saw Justin Wong get his ass kicked by Soo tho. I love the West Coast!

    I like the 1st verse of Rollin’ On 20’s

Speaking of which, I’ve been thinking about living in NYC for awhile now. Between always wanting to kinda, Barbara’s (friend) fucking ridiculous love for the city, moovs, chance for something new, Jay-Z, etc., I’ve almost made it a life goal to live there for a bit.

I miss Japan, my brothers, my childhood, my old friendships, my new friends and probly some other stuff too.

Oh yeah, I gotta do traffic school too. Almost forgot about that, I should finish it up soon…

My mind is too full of shit right now. I have this nasty habit that I’ve had for a real long time to procrastinate and then forget shit. I’ve been trying to fix this, but its a slow process. I’m really high-strung right now; I need to get my shit together forreals. And I still gotta start working out. So much for summer of fitness…

I can’t wait for my vacation.

    I fucking love SpottieOttieDopalicious. After I finished the above, I started paying attention to the bgm… this song relaxes me. I wonder if its cuz its linked to my babe…